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3 Celebrity Crushes

Who is your celebrity crush? While still looking through writing prompts I saw “write about three celebrity crushes” and I was amused. I thought this would be a fun one that fits with a bit of escapism from everything going on, so here goes. I would also LOVE to receive some comments about yours!

First, I will admit that if they have a UK accent, most likely I appreciate their voice and sense of humor. They might be good looking too, but it’s their interviews or fan interaction that show their inner attractiveness that gets them on my totally objectifying “Eye Candy” board. *grin*

First, Gerry Butler is my ultimate Hall Pass, not that it’d happen in a million years, but if there’s going to be a celebrity hall pass list, he’s going to be first. Sings, such a sarcastic and inappropriate sense of humor, self deprecating, bearded (almost always prefer at least some facial hair *sigh*), and smart enough to have been a lawyer. I know that his singing isn’t up to snuff for some, especially the Michael Crawford crowd, but “Music of the Night” makes me melt enough to have originally based my half sleeve tattoo concept around a line of the song because I memorized it after listening to him sing it so many times. *laugh* I’ve also gotten to that point in life that I like that he has a “dad bod” between movies and will never get back to the abs from 300. I totally appreciate a man who spends time living life instead of in the gym or counting calories; just one of my things.

Leaving Scotland and heading to London is Tom Hiddleston. He has such an awesome personality in every interview, sings beautifully anyway but man oh man he did an amazing job on “I Saw the Light” (as Hank Williams), and has such an adorable smile. He’s an awesome actor, of course, but I watch his interviews even more often than his movies. And I’m not sure which poem the quote of him saying “I will be the first man to kiss you, to bed you…” *blushes and looks for a fan* I would be happy to hear him read the yellow pages, but seductive poetry? 😳

This would be more of a character type than celebrity, actually. Ryan Eggold is a good example. Intelligent, down to Earth, an adorable smile, and a quirky personality (especially a nerdy one) will always land them on my “hot tamale train”, as Mary Murphy calls it. Add tidy facial hair or glasses and I’ll blush while I obsessively binge watch the show. *laugh* Every so often someone who plays a naughty character, like Colin O’Donoghue as Hook on OUAT or Johnny Depp as a scrape in Cry Baby (some guys can pull off guy liner better than most women pull off eyeliner, IMO), sneaks in and makes me smile. Cheeky buggers.

Now, I may be heterosexual, but I can’t make this list without including women. Although it’s not so much a “get the motor running” kind of thing for me *saucy grin*, it’s often “your confidence or personality is sexy as h-”.

Melanie Moore isn’t really a celebrity unless you’re really into dance. She won So You Think You Can Dance and went on to be one of their all stars, as well as making some awesome performances on Broadway (which are very hard to find videos people snuck for the poor people like me that will never get the chance to watch a Broadway performance in person *grin*). She’s always super supportive of her dance partners and seems to be an awesome mentor for the amateur dancers. I still watch her performance to “Total Eclipse of the Heart” with Neil Haskell from like eight years ago and feel the longing of her character (Mandy Moore is such an amazing choreographer) every single time. (The storyline of the choreography is that he has decided to leave and she is trying to convince him to stay. I couldn’t find any videos that include the explanation from Mandy Moore prior to the dance after all these years, unfortunately. Here’s the link to the dance performance if you’d like to watch.)

Ruby Rose is a strong contender for first place. Excuse the word, but she is the ultimate badass to me. I even tried to get her Pitch Perfect 3 haircut although it didn’t turn out right on me. She loves tattoos and even did some boxing (remember my two goals I want to get back to from Pre-Covid?). She’s learned to be comfortable in who she is and that difficult to obtain confidence is amazing.

Melissa McCarthy is probably the one nobody expected to be on the list. She is an awesome actress, funny as h-, and is actually happy with her body despite it not being what society deems pretty. One quote that I seriously love is “[harsh review from a critic focusing on her weight] I felt really bad for someone who is swimming in so much hate. I just thought, that’s someone who’s in a really bad spot, and I am in such a happy spot. I laugh my head off every day with my husband and my kids who are mooning me and singing me songs.” She is truly a role model. “There’s an epidemic in our country of girls and women feeling bad about themselves based on what 0.5% of the human race looks like.” There would be a lot less bullying and self harm if this quote went viral, IMO.

I hope you have fun thinking about your own list and figuring out why they’re your celebrity crushes, hopefully beyond being eye candy. *grin* Like I wrote in the beginning, I’d love to read your own! It’s kind of fascinating what all goes into a crush and also sometimes helps your listener/reader/friend see that person from a new POV. I hope you are all being safe during such a turbulent and medically scary time, and hope you are enjoying the few minutes of escape from regular life these odd posts may bring. 🙂

Stereotype (Random)

Day 2 of 3, Week 2

I know Home Health is supposed to help, but it may be what breaks me for the month. Lol Yesterday the meeting was 7 hours later than originally set, after a night of insomnia. No call yet to say when to expect today’s, so yoga pants and oversized tee are on in case it’s a 5 minute warning. I start PT officially today. I’m ready with my mat, XXL heating pad, TENS unit, and coffee. Bedrest exercises and falling prevention. Sounds fun, right? Anyone want to share in an exhausted pity party this morning? Lol

Sparkles are definitely required. I earned them. 😉

You Are Worth It

I think we could all use this message right now. In this time of fear, grief, depression, and isolation, most of us have had time to evaluate our lives, circumstances, and even self worth. Many are struggling with having had the time to stop and actually reflect, and we often end up with some dark thoughts. So please remember that YOU ARE WORTH IT. You always were.

I’ve spent my entire life seeking approval and recognition. I felt like a failure because I became disabled and usually can’t do things that garner acknowledgement and praise. I have had to leave my career and now end two business ventures.

I put a lot of work, time, creativity, and my precious little bit of energy into my bath and body business, and often my products never sold or were commented on, and it hurt. I felt like I had failed at another thing in life. Now I realize that I sought recognition and praise, when I really needed to be proud of myself without requiring others to say it.

There’s a difference between being humble and knowing your self worth; knowing that you are worth it. I read this and it just clicked suddenly, and I hope it does for someone else reading this, too. Whatever you do, even if it’s taking a rest day because you’re out of spoons if you’re a Spoonie, or you put yourself at potential risk of illness by being an essential worker, you are awesome. You are awesome just because you are and hopefully this helps you to be proud of yourself without waiting for someone else to say so, to make you feel it. While you ponder this, if you are needing this message, I acknowledge you – that you’re awesome and worthy. I know that you are stronger and better than you realize, regardless if you’re successful, good looking, disabled, a nerd, searching for the right career, or just taking it day by day. We are worth it.

420

For those of you that support it, Happy 420 Day to you! 🙂 Hopefully we’ll see at least medicinal nationwide to improve this weird year! 🙂

Step One Complete!

*Lets out a whoop* I completed my first step of walking on the wild side and enjoying my life.

The comb is there to help give an idea of dimensions.

Although I usually try to avoid posting pictures of myself, since that’s just not me or what I want to write about, here goes!

The before

After a little bit of time on a step stool and buzzing hair below the clip where I’d piled the “don’t undercut” hair, and attempts to make an even guide line for the undercut using mirrors without my glasses, thankfully my mom came to the rescue. 😂

Ignore the nose piercing. That’s just the filter to help brighten things up. Lol
A little wild tousling without any product

And just for fun…

I feel so sassy!

I’ll be dyeing it Ruby Red, from the “flaming reds” collection, soon, so I’ll be the most daring I’ve ever been with my hair, especially when I also get to play with some sea salt spray and some tousling mousse. Give me a daring, dark lipstick and watch out world…or maybe IHOP or Snapchat. Whatever. *laugh* I’ve always been a bit into catching people off guard, such as dyeing my hair burgundy when I turned 18 or wearing acid wash jeans with light up tennis shoes while line dancing, but wow! I feel so edgy and like I finally found the look I’ve been trying to get all of my life. I must say though that I’m very thankful that things timed out right for my mom to come help, otherwise there’s a good chance it would have gone very badly and mad me mad, so I’d have just buzzed most of it off with pretty short hair on top. 🤣 Thankfully my guardian angel was working feverishly instead of drinking tea and wondering if I’d fall off the stool and crack my head open. Sometimes I think there’s a bet among the angels about which injury I’ll get next and to what extent. Anywho…*grin*

Next, decide which is the higher priority right now…getting my half sleeve tattoo or a Wii switch so I can get my groove on with a Just Dance subscription. I want that tattoo, but I’d really like to not have a muffin top with skinny bombshell jeans this Spring. In the meantime, I’ll read my book about a knitting group of vampires helping a fledgling witch take on a poltergeist and find a human murderer. Enjoy today, make decisions someday. 😉

Sierra’s Anniversary

A few hours ago, 20 years ago today, my daughter Sierra became an angel. Although there is no expiration date on grief, we’ve learned to be thankful to have a bit of Heaven in our home and in our hearts.

There will be another angel
Around the throne tonight
Your love lives on inside of me, 
And I will hold on tight
It’s not my place to question, 
Only God knows why
I’m just jealous of the angels
Around the throne tonight

Jealous of the Angels, Songwriters: Zachary N. Runquist / Jennifer Bostic / Jimmy Fortune / Barrett Yeretsian

Jealous of the Angels lyrics © Fortune Publishing, LLC, BMG Rights Management

I hope this helps someone out there

At the start of the week I had a very frightening incident. L had to go to work and after seeing him off, I grabbed a bite of food to nibble on to keep my meds from making my stomach upset. I could still see the reflection of the headlights through the driveway facing window as he waited at the end of the drive to pull out. That’s when things went wrong. I’m not sure if the food just turned wrong as I swallowed or if my throat pulled one of its lovely episodes of making it difficult to swallow, but I ended up choking. Thankfully, as I prepared to try to use a chair to do the Heimlich the food mushed enough and my throat relaxed enough, so I was able to swallow. It left my throat so raw and sore that today was the first day I spoke fully, although I was careful to not speak a lot. I even got to eat real food again! *happy dance* I still have the side effects of it inflaming other parts of my sinuses and my ear canals, but Hallelujah!

Anyway, while quiet, L gone or asleep most of the time, and my trying to distract myself, I went down the medical rabbit hole. I started out with learning how my throat could cause my ears to have a crinkling noise and all my other symptoms, then about six subjects in I ended up with a YouTube recommendation to watch Spaulding Decon, under the Crime Scene Cleaning website. (Hey, I admitted I went down that rabbit hole. Never know where I’ll end up with my curious mind! Lol) One of this year’s videos, where they started to record and air lengthier and informative episodes about biohazard cases that they handle, came up and I ended up watching them all, and I suddenly had a whole new POV that helps me with my suicidal ideation. They clean up from regular unattended deaths, hoarding, accidents, etc., but also suicides. There is no judgement over the person’s choice or what the client has chosen for the level of cleanup once the biohazards have been dealt with, either. The thing is, it’s unflinchingly up front and shows everything after the body has been removed. You see what the family member that discovers the body would face and how the family isn’t just coping with their grief and possibly shock, but also the physical scene that is left behind.

Police and emergency personnel don’t clean up the scene when they remove a body. They’re there for the emergency (or removal) situation and possibly an investigation. They don’t clean the blood splatter from a gunshot wound or remove decomp. There are specialized companies that do this; not only for safety, but to help the people and families in need of their cleaning services. They’re heroes who don’t wear capes, just like law enforcement and emergency personnel.

Seeing the gore that a grieving family member or friend, most likely L or my mother, would see and deal with if I committed suicide, really helped me create a step back, so to speak, for my mind to walk through if my thoughts turn dark. I basically do a mental crime scene walkthrough, to see it as they would, and see how the different choices would affect them. Somehow having the intense, graphic visuals in my mind are a great way to make my mind shift focus a bit and end up completely stopping. (Ask people with ideation – it’s super hard to quiet those thoughts and take a step back from the thoughts, no matter how much you don’t want to have them or feel that way. I certainly don’t want the sudden feelings of desolation and worthlessness!)

If you suffer from ideation or know someone that does, please consider this unconventional method or talk to your mental health professionals if you are the sufferer. As my awesome psychiatrist says, you can’t have too many tools in your belt when it comes to mental health. The visuals and the meaning behind them are honestly very haunting. They’re a hell of a lot stronger right now for me than when the dark thoughts creep in. So, I hope (yet another brutally honest and odd post) will help either open dialogue if you know someone who is struggling or if you suffer and want to try another method to see if this is the one that works better for you than the ones that have barely worked for you before.

If you know someone who has troubles with ideation, please consider trying to stomach a bit of the show enough to watch “Crime scene cleanup job questions answered”. The owner has some incredible statements about judgement that are worth a listen and to take at least a few minutes to consider. It might just give you another way to look at situations.

I truly hope that any sufferer receives the same empathy and lack of judgement that this company gives, and I hope that you are able to find that one tool that works really well for you, even if it takes going down a weird YT rabbit hole to find yours.

My New Business Flickr

Hi there!  Long time, no write.  😀  I haven’t really had anything new to post, since I’ve mostly just been focusing on my health and PTSD therapy, especially since I separated out my gaming into an individual blog.  I have, however, finally had the light bulb moment that I could create another Flickr account to work as a visual portfolio of products I have made.  Once I am ever able to start working on products again and then update the website accordingly, I’ll be able to display examples of other products that I have made that I am not featuring on the website.  This allows customers to get an idea of ideas, options, and skills I have for custom orders.  I added a convenient little widget (display link) in my sidebar, but wanted to post it in an actual blog post for your convenience, in case you’d like to follow the portfolio.  I’ll include work-in-progress concepts there (WIPs), so you’ll get a little bit more of a behind-the-scenes look than I typically post on the site and often don’t blog.  (I tend to prefer to blog when something is actually done or I’ve fully fleshed out an idea.)  If you’d like to check it out or follow my business Flickr, it is https://www.flickr.com/gp/157936082@N04/jV9q0y.  I made it a hyperlink that opens on a new page and you have the option to copy/paste instead, if you prefer.

Until I next have something interesting to write about, happy pampering and best wishes! 🙂

One of my Quirks

It’s been a while since I’ve posted and although I’ve been having a lot of fun doing SL photography on my SL blog, and giving my mind time to settle, I realized that I honestly miss regular blogging. I have absolutely no inspiration or ability to create any product right now, sadly, so you’re stuck learning a bit more about just how quirky I am. *laugh*

Anyone close to me, if asked to describe me, would probably say that I’m a bit obsessed with my Celtic heritage. I totally own up to that and even bought L a machine gun toting leprechaun patch as a stocking gift even. *grin* However, it’s not limited to Ireland, Scotland, and the Druids. I love most things English, as well. Being the tech loving nerd that I am, I naturally am a faithful subscriber to both BritBox and Acorn streaming services, both with programs from across the pond, with a little Australian and Welsh thrown in.

While my favorite British quiz show, QI, is between seasons (or series, as they say), I have been exploring more of the mysteries and absolutely love Acorn’s “Queens of Mystery”. Two new episodes (they’re divided, but the second is the continuation of the first) every Monday and I have 2 delightful hours full of a bright-eyed Detective Sergeant Matilda along with her three crime-writing aunts solve a case, although the aunts are never involved if the Chief asks. *grin* With veteran actresses from amazing shows like The Bletchley Circle, Midsomer Murders (although, to be fair, I think it’s mandatory for all European actors and actresses to appear in at least one episode of that classic *laugh*), Taggart, Poirot, and one of my favorite English versions of Sherlock Holmes, it was destined to be fantastic, in my opinion. That’s some wicked talent just in the actresses who play the aunts!

There’s a continuing mystery underneath it all about Matilda’s mother’s disappearance when she was little, with very unexpected story lines, and a huge dose of charm. So if you can spare one Starbucks a month, I wholeheartedly recommend at least trying Acorn and seeing what you think about the Queens of Mystery!

So, I’m not all doom, gloom, and poison…well, they’re still murder mysteries and some poison, but this is a charming version. *grin* Although I rate at 100% as Wednesday Addams on every quiz I take, even I enjoy lighthearted shows like this (and Grease 2, Cry-Baby, and Dirty Dancing, if you happen to follow my Flickr and see my themed SL photography with those films for inspiration *laugh*). If you happen to also decide on a trial of BritBox, I recommend Midsomer Murders and The Vicar of Dibley, and maybe binge-watching/participating in QI’s trivia. I now know so much odd trivia that has actually come in handy a few times! For those that know the series, let’s all agree that Alan needs to stop saying Blue Whale. *laugh*

Anyway, that’s a little bit of random quirkiness for today. I hope this finds you all healthy and happy as you can be! 🙂

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